The blind see, the lame walk, Lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised; the wretched of the earth learn that God is on their side. “Is this what you were expecting?” Matthew 11:4-6
Bring health to the sick. Raise the dead. Touch the untouchables. Kick out the demons. Tell them that the kingdom is here. This is not what the twelve expected! Jesus had become a religious celebrity and as members of his entourage they were looking for fringe benefits. They misunderstood their purpose. They misrepresented their power. They misread His prayer. The pilgrimage with Jesus was their opportunity to change their thinking and to transform themselves into the person God wanted them to become. And because the pilgrimage was a process for spiritual change it represented the highest level of prayer — the prayer for nothing — the prayer for everything! This was their opportunity for deep and profound silence. This was their encounter with their miracle. But this is not what they were expecting.
Jesus had left the physician in the village yet time after time blind eyes were open. The lepers’ philosophy and the prostitutes’ rationale had also been left there. He was freely teaching the simple and poor about the beauty and blissfulness of moments. He was bringing them closer to their own divine power. His compassion was so great that it did not argue with their logic. Instead, he simply reminded the blind — Light exists! Instead, he whispered in the ear of the prostitute — Love exists! Instead, he picked up the lame by washing their feet. Instead, he danced with the demon-possessed until all shadows surrendered to grace. But still this was not what they were expecting.
They were expecting fame and fortune and the power to sequester a kingdom. If only they could have been still long enough to see that all these things, that all the deep desires of their hearts depended solely on them; that they possessed the divine power to become what they believed. They had participated in a thousand miracles. They had listened to storms obey. They had collected grave clothes from the once dead. They had been privileged to touch the Master’s robe. Yet even in the most blessed of lives, there are times when our emotions descend on us and impose feelings of confusion, emptiness, meaninglessness, anxiety, anguish, darkness, and misery. The disciples were no different except the choice they made was to follow love to its completion.
You have a treasure within you but first you must leave your expectations in the village. You must accept your pilgrimage! You must accept loves Impressionistic painting! You are so blessed but you don’t know — Light exists! You are so highly favored yet you don’t realize all your shadows have surrendered to grace. When you look at your life what do you see? Do you see the same portrait as before? Do you ever touch the unseen particles of cheerfulness, kindness, gratitude and forgiveness? Do you enter the higher level of the sanctuary filled with the love and bliss of His presence? Or is your relationship contaminated by the invisible energy of conflict and problems? God is waiting for you to come closer and closer. He is waiting to give you the desires of your heart but first you must impact the negative energy field of your immediate surroundings: The blind see, The lame walk, Lepers are cleansed, The deaf hear, The dead are raised, The wretched of the earth learn that God is on their side.
Is this what you were expecting?